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NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 12: (L-R) Kim Kardashian, and Kris Humphries attend the Abbey Dawn by Avril Lavigne Spring 2012 fashion show during Style360 at the Metropolitan Pavilion on September 12, 2011 in New York City. (Photo by Ilya S. Savenok/Getty Images)

HOLLYWOOD, CA – AUGUST 17: Kris Humphries and Kim Kardashian attend the Kardashian Kollection Launch Party at The Colony on August 17, 2011 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Jason Merritt/Getty Images)

Eight years since his divorce from Kim Kardashian, Kris Humphries is opening up about how the relationship’s public ending was “brutal” and took a toll on his career.

In an essay for The Players Tribune, Humphries opened up about his challenges in the NBA and dealing with the fame of his 72-day marriage.

“I should have known what I was getting into,” he wrote. “I was definitely naive about how much my life was going to change. But the one thing that really bothers me is whenever people say that my marriage was fake.”

While Humphries admitted that much of “that world” is not real, that his “actual relationship was 100 percent real.”

After going through the “embarrassing” and “brutal” ending of their relationship, he admitted he was embarrassed to be himself.

“I’ll be honest, I dealt with a lot of anxiety, especially in crowds. There was about a year where I was in a dark place,” he said. “I didn’t want to leave my home. You feel like … I don’t know … the whole world hates you, but they don’t even know why. They don’t even know you at all. They just recognize your face, and they’re on you.”

What got him through was his love of basketball. And now that he has left the NBA, he is focusing on business ventures, including opening 10 Five Guys burger franchises.

Still, Humphries wants to be remembered for his first love – being an athlete.

“I hope that true fans of basketball remember me as a grinder, as a guy who transformed into a heck of a rebounder, and as a guy who always tried to put the game in the best light,” Humphies said.